Still slightly high at the moment... I just realized something I find REALLY cozy... like... the stillness you can find in chaos.
You know like the feeling you get when the weather is super terrible, like there's a big storm... rain, wind, snow... whatever... but like you're inside, all cozy and warm. You're right in the middle of that horrible chaos, the unrelenting elements that would otherwise end you... or maybe just make you really uncomfortable... but to be protected within that chaos. Whether it's watching the rain from your window, or hearing the faint whisper of a howling wind muffled by the walls around you. The safe stillness of solitude within somber settings. To lock yourself away from the storm, but not so much that you can't tell that it's there. It's that duality, that contrast between the chaos of hell and the stillness of heaven. Imagine looking outside a proverbial window in heaven and seeing the hell raging outside... you see, God didn't create hell... because it was already there. God simply created a salvation ~from~ hell... that is heaven... a house protected, a sanctuary in an afterlife otherwise haunted by eternal torment. It is the joy, the bliss, the love, the gentle longing, the calm, the comfort, the contentment inside us all... those feelings we can turn to in a world otherwise consumed with the storms of hate, pain, suffering, loss, fear, uncertainty, worry, embarrassment... all those things can be muffled and muted by the cozy, comforting structures we create within our hearts and with others.
Always remember to look for heaven when you're trapped in hell. You can find it by searching out the lost remnants of your heart's longings. Find what you lost, find what's missing and you'll find heaven, even in this hell on earth that we live in.